May 3rd

I didn’t meet my goals for April.

I feel good though. I got on my bike for the first time in probably 4 years two times this weekend. One for 10 miles and another for 25 miles. It was awesome.

Obviously on the bike, there is pretty much zero impact on the knee so I can go as long as my muscles and lungs can take me. They were some good rides. I really enjoyed getting out and feeling the sun on my face.

I still don’t know how this world is going to turn out. But I’m going to keep trying to live. I can’t stop living and then end up dying from the disease without having done anything to enjoy myself at the end of it all.

I know that sounds really morbid.

I don’t know what everybody else thinks but to me it seems like something about living through things like this is built into people. Naturally a lot of people are getting outside even though it may be dangerous for their health. At some point dangerous for health is a relative term.

“It’s a dangerous business, Frodo, going out your door. You step onto the road, and if you don’t keep your feet, there’s no knowing where you might be swept off to.”

It truly is a dangerous business going out your front door. But Frodo went out his front door. Frodo did his thing. At some point we have to do our thing. I’m not going to get all political or anything like that so I’ll leave it there. Because I do NOT want anybody to be hurt, I want people to be healthy.

I want them to be healthy more than I ever have. I find myself looking at people’s faces so much more these days just to acknowledge their humanity. To acknowledge that they are just as worried about things as everybody else is. I want to acknowledge the humanity in this situation. This is not something anybody wanted. We all want everything to get back to the way it was, but we all have anxiety on whether or not we will. We are worried that people we love, the things we enjoy doing, the baseball games, concerts, fun things are all threatened. This sucks.

This will pass, it will take time but it will pass. I for one, am looking forward to being near people again. Recognizing that while we are all different and there are problems in the world, we are all here doing the best we can with what we are given.

I know this has nothing to do with having ACL reconstruction but perhaps that coupled with an event like this really lets me have some perspective that I never thought I could have. Post surgery, I have a new lease on active life. Post pandemic I feel like I’m going to feel like I have a new lease on regular life. I don’t plan on wasting it.